In Between

The in between zone of time and timelessness has been worth it’s weightlessness in gold in my life lately.. and for that, I am very grateful to all of the teachers who continue to inspire me. That space seems to be filled with gratitude and compassion and light. So pure and so supportive, surrounding my whole being, in my whole being. It does pervade the space around me- around everything.

I remember finding a pinpoint of an opening into this in between zone and stepped inside of it, one little extension at a time. I had to go very slowly and inch my way, waiting for this space to warm and expand around me, and then I had to integrate it into my life.

Then, another tiny step, expand, integrate. More light. More space. I was still in the dark but carried on this tedious task out of pure stubbornness sometimes. Sometimes, I would totally lose my place in this process and even forget about it.... somehow, though, I kept moving and inching my way forward, like a little green inchworm. I wriggled my way into the light very carefully like I was trying to get into an old dress without ripping it.

Holding onto the light, and letting it go at the same time has been like walking a tightrope made of angel hair, and the suitcase of stuff I was carrying with me definitely had to go. What is was filled with had to be taken out and dealt with in my own way.

I had to let go of so much stuff that really wasn’t me or mine. That was the work.

As you know, this isn’t easy. It takes time. Patience. And, faith that this is all for a reason and to fulfill the highest purpose of one’s life...faith and patience to keep walking one step at a time towards finding this freedom, this pure blissful consciousness where one would find that the inside and the outside are one.

Everyone has there own way and their own process...this is just mine. I feel that I’ve finally lost the weight and was able to zip that dress up. It suits me. It is comfortable and I’m not walking a tightrope anymore. I’m not carrying a suitcase. I am still learning. I’m still working. I’m still integrating. But, there is more time where I am sitting in the space in between here and there which is both here and there. There is a feeling of the inside and outside being the same. There is a lovely light in my heart that is guiding me now... into more light, ever opening, ever expanding, ever radiant. Extending into that truth and stepping into it fully is my walk.   I've come to know this as Timeless Awareness.  To come alive in Timeless Awareness, to step into that realm holding non duality in a world of differences,  is a divine invitation.

THE PHENOMENOLOGY OF THE PATH OF YOUR AWARENESS AS NATURAL LIBERATION

Dudjom Rinpoche would say: Know the one thing that frees everything, your own awareness.

It is also important to know the difference between your mind and your awareness. Your mind is your thoughts, your affects, your sensations, your fantasies, and your memory. Your mind is your ego and it is really good to have one. You, the essential you, is awareness; the innermost awareness that is within your mind and your body and the mind-body continuum. Primordial awareness is your basic self, your subjectivity, your awareness. Awareness is non conceptual knowingness…the knowingness of knowingness within yourself as yourself and your knowingness of knowingness within others, and within the world. Awareness is direct and not always mediated through the mind although it can be. Mind is really important, and awareness is really really important. You really want to know the difference because in that sense of difference lays mastery, esoteric mastery. If you only know your mind, only conceptualize your mind: your thoughts, affects, sensations, memories, fantasy, desire, you have a great skill but you must go further.

It is useful to free yourself from you mind temporarily, to suspend your mind just a bit to actually know this awareness. As you focus within awareness as awareness on awareness you will experience space or openness, or even at moments a void, vast and space without reference, sky-like space or even nothingness as no thingness or emptiness. Initially, this is not always easy, but to have this base of spaciousness as your self is so freeing, and un-containing. This experience of spaciousness becomes the base of your experience, base of arising thoughts, feelings, sensations, memory, fantasy and the base of the dissolving of experience. This base of awareness is your essential self. We might even consider that you are a place, the place of awareness in time and space. Awareness is not a thought, or affect, or sensation, or memory, or fantasy. Awareness is a place. For you to be aware of the place of awareness is to be grounded in awareness. Awareness, the space of awareness is ground, is place.

This place that you are, this ground that you are is unbound and is actually a field. It is not a thing, or little entity. This field goes beyond the body boundaries, that is so amazing. Its horizons can extend and extend, your base, this original ground is actually infinite in its horizons and even multi-dimensional. This space, this openness, this non conceptual knowingness is also light, or luminous, namely, it illuminates itself and illuminates your experience. Light or illuminosity is another way of speaking about knowing, consciousness. Knowingness is openness.

This space is a sense of potentialities. There are no fixations in this space, it is unformulated spaciousness. To remain in this place of awareness is to experience potential in an un-fixated way. This unformulatedness, or unfixatedness is both great and scary. And this awareness is also energy, energy arises and emanates from within this place, this space, this essential you is more you than your thoughts, sensations, memories and fantasy, more essential than your affective states, more essential than your history, your story. Your story, your history , this narrative is actually experienced from within this place of awareness, of openness, energy, and light.

This spaciousness is the path of natural liberation. Liberation is not a function as some would think of having a perfect mind, perfect thoughts, perfect feelings, memories, sensations. Liberation is not simply a moral issue, an issue of conscience, of being better, gooder, smarter. Religion can be really useful and fun, but liberation is not limited to religious framing. Liberation can take place within religions, but liberation is the very nature of awareness and is independent of religion.

To live within the place of awareness, to experience the unfolding experiences of your life, is the method of liberation, natural liberation. Liberation is the embodiment of awareness, the heart essence. You get a glimpse and then you habituate the experience. You liberate through experience. Liberate means becoming free, unbound, untied, locked down,

There are many methods. I will describe one method by guru rinpoche, Padmashambhava.

Do not think or focus on the past experience, do not live in the past, and do not think about the future, do not live in the future, no repetitious remembering and no obsessional futuring, such framing takes you out of awareness. Sometimes within awareness the past may manifest and even at times the sense of the future may manifest, but being in your mind about the past and being in your mind about the future, takes you out of potential space, dharmakaya. Do not focus on past thoughts, or chase after the future. Stay within the sense of awareness and experience the arising of everything within this awareness field, remain in the place of awareness. And experience not only the arising but the dissolving of experience-becoming an expert and master of arising and dissolving, appearing and disappearing of phenomena. Become a master of the arising of affects, arising of sensations, arising of memory, arising of fantasy, arising of conceptualizations and the dissolving of sensations, dissolving of memory, dissolving of fantasy, dissolving of affective states. Living in a spacious awareness field is very very lucky.

By being in indeterminate space everything is possible; do not conceptualize desire as hope or hopelessness. Live in awareness, the place of awareness which is unfixated, unformulated, less organized by your mind, that moment, that duration is dharmakaya, or that moment is timeless awareness, self liberated awareness in time. This timeless awareness will in time illuminate your mind your thoughts, your affective states, even your memory, enhancing your sensations, enhancing your feelings……

Equally important, there is past, present and future, through the present we experience the 4^th time, timeless awareness, you will stabilize in timeless awareness. Within awareness you will not internalize other peoples’ affective states- this is also liberation. You will know what is happening within and without, but in knowingness you will be free of the internalization of other people’s affective states- then you will have uncluttered inner space-the space is actually your own continuum.

Finally this awareness is not uni-dimensional. It is actually multidimensional and as you live in awareness ,this place of awareness, the dimensions reveal themselves to you, you will experience the dimension of pure potentiality, the archetypical dimension of energies, luminous vortexes, symbolic elaboration of powers or shakties of awareness field and you will experience nirmanakaya as luminous flesh, luminous earth.

Written by: Rudolph Bauer, Ph.D.

Edited by: Skip Ellis, MSW

Speaking of Consciousness

Speaking of consciousness, a smile arises with my breath, like the ocean waves coming into shore, happily greeting my toes. The smile extends there, into my feet. I sense the outline of my body, the substances filling it, the structure supporting it, the personality abiding. Past, present and future are all accounted for in time and timelessness. Traces of truth remain, as I watch the water dissolve into the sand.

The sun and the moon make great companions, but rarely see one another. One is hidden, the other displayed. Sometimes, they can be seen in the sky together, when they whisper as dawn breaks, our light is one. They appear separate; the sun and the moon, the forest and the trees, the sky and the birds, the water and the sand.

Speaking of Consciousness, my breath once again becomes a smile upon my face. The sun is there to warm me, the moon cooling my back, shooting through my heart's abode. It is here, it is there. It is in- between here and there. Mirrors surround and catch the image of the mandala, constantly changing it’s perfect display of colored seconds of time, washed clean with a crashing wave. Foam crested waters immerse what was held in that instant, sheer, like the mist. Don’t be fooled by the changing scenery.

Speaking of Consciousness, my feet want to dance. My arms want to swing and my heart wants to jump for joy. My hands want to come together, to clap, to pray. My body wants to twirl and reach to the sky, my nose wants to take in the smells of the dirt and all the rotting leaves and the chill in the air. My ears are free and sounds swirl through them. I want to give birth. My child is born of this smiling light. Countless babies of bliss bounce through the air, like bubbles or balloons making there ascension. They are gone now.

Speaking of Consciousness, all of nature take their places, like the pages of a book , blank until the words are written. What once was a black and white world has become a magical spiraling field of light, full of colors that have no names. The base is this radiance, brilliant light. Who is mixing these gorgeous hues? Who is the palette holder and who is creating this scene before my eyes? I’ve heard the name whispered in the wind. It contains all the letters and all the names and all the sounds. They swirl together like leaves falling, and delight in carrying them softly to the ground. The sound they make as they touch the earth, that is the name, speaking of consciousness.

written by Karen Ferguson

Mudra of Time and Timelessness

Mudra of Time and Timelessness

The simple mudra of lightly touching the tip of the first finger to the tip of the thumb connects, brings together, time in timelessness and timelessness in time. This invaluable, easy gesture of the hand reminds us where we are in any given situation. It is a gesture that brings us to the precise and present moment of whatever circumstance we are in. In this shared instant of now, time and timelessness effortlessly balance one another.

If pulled apart or separated, time and timelessness lose coherence. Without time, timelessness floats with no meaningful ‘where’ in the vast and open oneness of singularity. And time, without its timeless companion, gets stuck, pinned, by its own overabundant focus on endless parcels and bits…fragments of occurrences, whether real or anticipated, of situations past, or present, or yet to come. In this way, time catches itself, ensnares itself, in the ‘thingness’ of events. With no abiding ‘whereness’ of time, we too become caught and cannot fully meet, cannot fully connect, with the moment of our situation. Without timelessness, there is no felt place in time in which to be.

And so, these two entities of timelessness and time provide a context, an unfolding frame, for each other; one holds both the other as well as itself. So too are we as ourselves, as your self and my self, simultaneously held in both time and timelessness. We can now know naturally and easily the ‘where’ of our situation, whatever it may be. In this way, we can meet a circumstance and take agency, for a place in time now has meaning. And at this triangulated point of self and time and timelessness, we can just be. Never lost to time, never lost in ‘no time’, this point moves like liquid light. It is the leading edge of light and is not different now from what it was several minutes ago, or from what it will be several minutes from now. It is compass and map and place all at once…pointing to now, now, now…a known time held always in the timeless present in the life of every situation.

The mudra…the index finger flexed and lightly pressing against the thumb, the thumb gently staying the finger…is method. We can now choose to be fully present in any given moment. The mudra gives us a way to do that: The beingness of our own being emerges and unfolds where time and timelessness simultaneously hold and release the moment of every circumstance. And we are here, living now from this place in the clarity of continuously flowing time.

Written by: Erin Johannesen, M.A., M.D.

Edited by: Rudolph Bauer, Ph.D.

GAZING AS DZOCHEN

1. WE LOOK THROUGH THE MIND AND WE GAZE WITHIN AWARENESS…BECOMING AWARE OF AWARENESS IS THE PATH OF GAZING (WHETHER YOUR EYES ARE OPENED OR CLOSED)…WE CAN GAZE INTO AWARENESS AND WE ARE IMMEDIATELY THE FIELD, THE FIELD OF BEING. IF WE LOOK AND LOOK FOR AWARENESS WITH OUR MIND ONLY BLANKNESS ARISES, A BLANK STATE. SUNYATA, PRIMORDIAL KNOWINGNESS, IS NOT BLANKNESS, IT IS NOT BLANKING OUT. AS WE BECOME AWARE OF AWARENESS WE ENTER THE GAZE, WE BECOME THE PLACE OF THE GAZE…THIS GAZING FROM WITHIN AWARENESS OPENS THE MULTIDIMENSIONALNESS .…THE DIFFERENT DIMENSIONS OF THE FIELD MANIFEST WITHIN THE GAZE, WITHIN US . THE GAZE IS BOTH WITHIN US AND BEYOND US. WITHIN THE GAZE THERE IS NEITHER SIMPLE INSIDE OR SIMPLE OUTSIDE. THE GAZE IS PLACE ..A VAST PLACE BEYOND INSIDE AND OUTSIDE.

THERE ARE MANY FORMS OF GAZING. AT TIMES WE GAZE THROUGH THE EYES OF THE MIND, (HEART CHANNELS), WE CAN GAZE THROUGH THE ENTIRE BODY, WE CAN GAZE THROUGH THE HEART ESSENCE, HRIDAYAM. WE CAN GAZE THROUGH TOUCH, WE CAN GAZE THROUGH SOUND, WE GAZE THROUGH SIGHT. WE CAN GAZE INTO VARIOUS PHENOMENA…ALL DIRECTLY…UNMEDIATED..WE CAN GAZE INTO SKY, WE CAN GAZE INTO DEATH, WE CAN GAZE IN THE PRE PERSONAL, GAZING INTO SOMA, GAZING INTO THE ELEMENTS, GAZING INTO THE DAKINI, THE VORTEXUAL, THE ELEMENT OF FLESH, WE GAZE INTO PSYCHE..THE GAZE ITSELF IS PSYCHE, NOT MIND.

GAZING BOTH LEADS TO AND IS GNOSIS, JHNANA..DIRECT PERCEPTION. TOGEL, THE LEAPING OVER PRACTICE, IS NOT SIMPLY GAZING INTO THE SKY, ALTHOUGH SKY GAZING IS ITS CULTURAL AND HISTORICAL ELABORATION. IF YOU WISH TO LIVE IN GNOSIS THEN GAZE…GAZING IS THE MOST DIRECT OF METHODS.. THE GAZING METHODS OF DZOGCHEN ARE OFTEN SECRET AND PROTECTED.

2.GAZING BRINGS FORTH THE SENSE OF PLACE…LOOKING.. LOOKING.. BRINGS FORTH SUBJECT OBJECT DUALITY…LOOKING BRINGS FORTH OBJECTIFICATION AND CLARITY. THE GAZE UPLIFTS THE LOOK. THE LOOK LOOKS AT, THE GAZE ALLOWS THE VAST PLACE TO OPEN..HUMAN BEINGS ARE PLACES, OPEN PLACES IN THE SEA OF QI. GAZING IS A PLACE THAT OPENS THE PLACE OF PHENOMENA..AND GAZING OPENS THE MULTIDIMENSIONALNESS OF PHENOMENA, OPENS THE KAYAS.

GAZING INTO ONES AWARENESS ALLOWS US TO GAZE INTO AWARENESS WITHIN ALL PHENOMENA..IN GAZING WE BECOME THE PLACE OF APPEARANCE MANIFESTING, IN GAZING WE BECOME THE PLACE OF THE APPARITIONAL MANIFESTATIONS, AND IN GAZING WE BECOME THE OPENNESS OF THE DHARMAKAYA. THIS PLACE IS THE PLACE OF DIMENSIONALITY…BECOMING THE DIMENSIONS

3.GAZE IS THE OPENNESS OF DHARMAKAYA MANIFESTING AS THE OPENNESS OF LUMINOUS SEEING WHICH IS KNOWING, GNOSIS, DIRECT PERCEPTION, JHANA. THIS GAZING TAKES PLACE WITHIN AND THROUGH OUR PRIMORDIAL SUBJECTIVITY, NOT THE SUBJECTIVITY OF CONTAINED MIND, THE NATURAL OPENNESS OF US TO THE OPENNESS OF THE GREAT EXPANSE. GAZING IS AN INFINITE PROCESS IN THE SENSE OF ITS UNBOUNDEDNESS..GAZING HAS NO FRAMING, NO MIND PICTURE, NO MENTAL ELABORATION. THE BEINGNESS OF BEING MANIFEST WITHIN AND THROUGH THE GAZE…THE PLACE OF THE GAZE IS THE PLACE OF THE MANIFESTATION OF THE KAYAS. THE NATURE OF AWARENESS IS THE OPENNESS OF GAZE…THE OPENNESS OF AWARENESS IS THE OPENNESS OF THE GAZE..IN OUR HEART OF HEARTS WE ARE THE GAZE…INNERMOST HEART ESSENCE.

4. IN THE GAZE YOU DO NOT SIMPLY SEE AN OBJECT, YOU BECOME THE PLACE OF THE GAZE AND IN THAT PLACE YOU BECOME THE PLACE OF MANIFESTATION, THE PLACE OF BRINGING FORTH…BRINGING FORTH THE BEINGNESS OF BEING….THE BEINGNESS OF BEING MANIFESTING THROUGH AND AS APPEARANCE, NIRMANAKAYA. THE BEINGNESS OF BEING MANIFESTING THROUGH AND AS APPARITIONAL ..THE PLACE OF APPARITIONAL,THE SAMBOGAKAYA, AND BEING IN ITS UNMANIFESTEDNESS……AS DHARMAKAYA

5..GAZING IS THE FIELD..THE FIELD IS GAZING INTO THE FIELD. WHEN YOU GAZE YOU ARE THE EXPERIENTIAL PLACE OF THE FIELD. THE FIELD GAZES THROUGH MIND AND ALSO BEYOND THE MIND. ACTUALLY, A HUMAN BEING IS THE PLACE OF THE GAZE WITHIN THE CONTEXT OF THE MIND BODY CONTINUUM IN SPACE AND TIME. GAZE REFLECTS SOURCE AND IS SOURCE.

6. THE GAZE IS THE RADIANCE OF AWARENESS, THE OPENNESS OF AWARENESS, THE PLACE OF AWARENESS. THE GAZE CAN COME THROUGH EYES AND EARS AND SENSATION. IN GAZING YOU BECOME EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE.. A PLACE OF GAZE..BETWEEN HEAVEN AND EARTH.

7. EXTENSION IS A WAY OF LEARNING TO GAZE..IN SKILLFULNESS THE GAZE AND EXTENSION ARE IN ONENESS…..GAZE AND EXTENSION ULTIMATELY ARE IN ONENESS…SAMANTRABADRI AND SAMANTRABADRA. THE GAZE IS QI OF ONENESS. PASSING THROUGH IS THE ACTION SKILL OF THE GAZE.. GAZE IS NOT A SUBJECT OBJECT RELATION. GAZE IS THE FIELD WHEREIN SUBJECTIVITY AND OBJECTS MANIFEST AS DIFFERENT DIMENSIONS OF THE WORLD…ONE FLESH. NO ONE HAS THE GAZE..YOU ARE THE GAZE..PASSING THOUGH A PERSON, PASSING THROUGH CIRCUMSTANCE, PASSING THROUGH SITUATION, PASSING THROUGH THE BOUNDARIES OF LIFE AND DEATHLESS STATE, PASSING THROUGH MEMORY, PASSING THROUGH EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING. PASSING THROUGH IS SOARING, PASSING THROUGH IS BEING A SKY GOER.

8. IN AND THROUGH GAZING THE PLACE OF THE GAZE BECOMES THE PLACE OF THE MANIFESTATION OF AWARENESS IN ALL ITS DIMENSIONS.. THE GAZE IS TIMELESS AWARENESS IN DUALITY AND TIMELESS AWARENESS IN NON DUALITY. THE GAZE HAS RANGE. THE GAZE IS NAKED AWARENESS AND THE OPENING OF THE BEINGNESS OF BEING THROUGH ALL PHENOMENA.

9. IN THE GAZE APPEARANCES REVEAL THEMSELVES, APPARITIONAL DIMENSION REVEALS ITSELF, AND DHARMAKAYA REVEALS ITSELF. THROUGH THE GAZE EVERYTHING IS UNCONCEALED..THAT IS WHY THE GAZE IS SO DIFFICULT AND SO EASY.

THE GAZE IS THE APOCALYPTIC FIRE…THE GAZE DESTROYS NEGATION, DESTROYS HORRIBLE INFLUENCES AND DESTRUCTIVE INFLUENCES. THE GAZE IS BENEVOLENCE AND FIERCENESS. THE GAZE IS THE BLAZING FIRE OF THE SUN. THE GAZE IS THE VAJRAKILAYA, THE GAZE IS THE PHUBA. THE GAZE BOTH BRINGS FORTH AND THE GAZE DESTROYS, RELEASES WHAT IS TO BE RELEASED. OM RULU RULU HUNG HO RULU.

10.THE GAZE IS A GIVENNESS AND TRANSMISSION.., THE GAZE IS THE PLACE, THE LOCUS OF TRANSMISSION OF AWARENESS.

11. THE GAZE IS THE SOURCE OF INVOCATION AND BRINGS FORTH APPARITIONAL DIMENSIONS. WITHOUT THE GAZE AND NOT BEING WITHIN GAZE THERE IS NO INVOCATIONAL POWER….NOTHING CAN BE BROUGHT FORTH FROM WITHIN AS THE PLACE ITSELF DOES NOT EXIST FOR APPEARANCE TO MANIFEST. DESIRE SHOULD BE HELD WITHIN THE GAZE…THEN FRUITION IS POSSIBLE.

12. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO SEE THE HUMAN FACE WITHOUT BEING IN THE GAZE. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO SEE THE HUMAN BEING WITHOUT BEING IN THE GAZE. THE GAZE IS NOT AN AFFECT, AND NOT A SENSATION, AND NOT A DREAM. THE GAZE IN ITS FULLNESS IS THE MANIFESTATION OF THE GREAT COMPASSION, THE BODHICITTA. THE GREAT COMPASSION IS THE GAZE …JHANA DHATU.

13. THE GAZE GIVES THE POWER OF AWARENESS FIELD TO ANOTHER..WE TRANSMIT THROUGH THE GAZE AND WE CAN TRANSMIT THE POWER OF THE GAZE TO EACH OTHER.

14. THE GAZE OF COMPASSION IS THE GREAT PROTECTION…THE GAZE IS BOTH BENEFICENT AND FIERCE. THE FIRE, THE BLAZINGNESS OF THE GAZES, CUTS THROUGH TERRIBLE INFLUENCES, NEGATIVE INFLUENCE , DEMONIC LIKE INFLUENCE. THE GAZE LIBERATES, LIBERATES US WITHIN THE FIELD, DISSOLVING, METABOLIZING WHATEVER HAS TO BE DISSOLVED. THE GAZING INTO HISTORY DISSOLVES THE GRASP OF HISTORY. GAZING INTO THE VARIOUS PLANETARY ENERGIES CREATES ATTUNEMENT AND PACIFICATION. GAZING IS THE PATH OF LIBERATION.

15. YESHE TSOGYAL SAYS THE FEELING OF LOVE PERFECTS THE GLANCE. LOVE PERFECTS THE GLANCE AS LIGHTENING. THE EMITTING OF LIGHT, THE EMITTING OF BRILLIANCE, CREATING AND DESTROYING, DISSOLVING, RELEASING…RELEASING, AND RELEASING. PADMASAMBHAVA SAYS I GIVE MYSELF AS A SPOUSE TO ALL BEINGS.

ANALYTIC MIND INTERPRETING GAZING..MIND INTERPRETING PSYCHE……ONE DIMENSION INTERPRETING A MORE PROFOUND DIMENSION..HISTORICAL MIND INTERPRETING A HISTORICAL EXPERIENCE.

OM AH HUM, BODHICITTA, MAHA SUKA, JHANA DATU AH.

A Breeze Runs Through It

On my walk this morning, there was a beautiful breeze that revealed the scent of late summer, and the longed for perfect circumstances for basking in the sweet sunshine. There was a current of bliss riding on the underbelly of the wind, which was silent, but I could hear it calling to me. This current was hitting all my senses at once, even beyond the physical ones, and my heart heard a song softly playing. In this symphony of light and awareness, I walked. I was fully awake and tuned in without the noise of my mind tagging along. Here, my feet found eternity. Timeless awareness in now time, embodied. As I moved along, the displays of light and shadows, cool and warm breezes, sounds and silence, blue sky and white clouds, all joined in as the instruments in the symphony played their music like masters. Or, like a painter who painted with awareness for a canvas. Dancing leaves, trees tall and short, birds flying freely, all riding on the wave of pure and basic joy.

I did sense a presence behind and within the breeze that was so full and so deep and so palpable, and once I noticed it, I was in it. It captured me. The expanse in front of me became more clear, scintillating and dimensional. Everyone and everything, and what was not seen, were all included in the openness that surrounded me. The breeze was so soft that my heart felt like it was resting on a golden pillow. I was in heaven. My body was on the earth, and I was completely embodying this experience. I felt as if I was being welcomed home.

Muktananda, the bliss of freedom. The hub is the heart of all sacred places...Nityananda. Satchitananda: existence, consciousness and bliss. Lokananda samadhi sukum. The bliss of the world is the Bliss of the Self. Jesus: I am the way, the truth and the light.

The breeze of grace sweeps my path clean. I need only stay on it. Join me.

Outside the Window

I’d like to tell you a little story that is true....

One day, I had completely exhausted all of my usual ways of entertaining myself and I still had time to fill. I had played with my dolls and colored, and God knows what else. So, I decided to sit and look out the window. The next step unfolded quite naturally. I thought that I would experiment to see what something could happen while doing nothing. Something out of nothing! I was very curious about what might happen. But, I had no idea what! So, I turned our big cushy chair around to face the window and sat in it. I decided to just look at the big maple tree in front of our house and sit in the chair. And I waited. I just gazed. I think I had enough faith and curiosity combined to just simply sit and see. I felt empty.

That was the action within non action. I was opening to a possibility. Sitting there felt satisfying enough. And, I began to explore the tree very slowly. I was aware of how clear this picture was. I saw the branches and the different shades of black and the green of the leaves. My vision took in the shape of the leaves, baby leaves and really big ones, their directions hanging on the limb, the different sizes of the branches and twigs and how they were all so unique, like snowflakes. I traced their own path to reach the sun. I was lead to discover the space between the branches and a whole new world within that space. I noticed that I was very still and actively calm. There was a sweet, warm energy flowing in my body and mind.

Then, I began to notice something very interesting. And, very exciting and new! I couldn’t think about it with my mind! I was just allowed to notice it with my experience of what was inside of me and what was outside of me. It was like the window that was separating me and the outside just opened up. And, that openness was the something! The tree and me were having the same experience of “something”! We weren’t two separate things anymore, me and the tree. The “something” that was glistening cool diamonds of light sparkling in the tree and the sky and the branches and leaves was the same cool sweet feeling moving inside my whole body. I could sense myself in the tree and the tree could sense me and we perfectly still together even though the leaves were moving. We were occupying the same space. Just open light and love together, in this endless moment of pure awareness and being. It was all around me, in me, outside of me .and it was all the same. The tree was alive in me. It was in my eyes, my hair, my arms, my whole body, and I was inside of the branches and the trunk and the leaves and all the never-ending spaces in between. One becoming two and two becoming one.

When I experienced this, I felt so happy. I was amazed and very satisfied to know that there really was something in nothing, and that my question had been answered. I was very happy to be alive and grateful to know the secret living in the tree and in me. I didn’t quite know what to do with this information, but there was a completion in just knowing it. I saw the tree , went through it and found the sky on the other side. It was emptiness and it was fullness, simultaneously. Then, I heard my mother call me for lunch.

Written by Karen Ferguson